Wednesday, December 16, 2009


So I know it not always the right way to handle life but is it wrong to always be on the defensive side? There is alot of manipulative people in the world. Some people always have motives and cant be trusted. Im sorry for this stereotype but "all dudes are DOGS" and if not all 89% or somewhere beyond that We all and if not all ALOT of us have had our heart broken from the false hope of love someone gave us...Being defensive might not be the best way to approach a situation but it most def the most safe. I admit I dont always follow that rule cause I do put myself in situations where If things go wrong on the defensive side was obviously the last way I was thinking, but still i cant always account for making responsibe decisions..You will always be left wondering What if...If you do...I would like to say growing up with a step dad instead of a Real [real meaning biological daddy] has ALOT to do with it...&& yes i say daddy cause anyman can be a father (that only requires sperm), but it takes a hell of a man to be called a daddy ( that has meaning) its said from the mind of small or young child (nothings more pure than that)...Ofcourse girls have played a role in my defensiveness too people who "pretended to be my friend" only to back stab...I guess ALL THOSE THINGS have a key role in the life of a "defensiveGIRL"!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I prolly shouldnt have signed on this site from this computer....#fail all in the history ugh!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

What's In a Female Friend

                          So Through my 22 years of life i have had two girls Ive called my best friend for the last 8 years of my life their names are Nicole and LaTeesha. Ive ofcourse trusted many girls in between who ended up showing me they didnt deserve the trust I gave them. They are not the point nor my actual best friends I have mentioned, My question in this blog is simply "Whats in a female friend?" Someone  you can trust and tell secrets to, or maybe someone you can truly express yourself to, someone who knows your deepest insecurites? Or someone who knows you better than you know yourself, maybe even someone who you want better things for than you want for yourself! This I really dont know I think with some girls life itself is a competetion and therefor they will never have a "true" best friend because jealously and envy will soon ruin any relationship its present in...I quess I have my own outlook on what a bestfriend should be, because even on Sex and The City Carrie has had trials and tribulations with the rest of the ladies...So ofcourse a drama free 100% happy best friendship is not in exsistance...but is atleast 99% to much to ask.....?  Until this is answered I'll be my own VERY BEST FRIEND 100%

Friday, December 4, 2009

A Hundred and Thirteen Pounds of HeLL in HeeLs!

Shes Back Bitches!