defensiveGIRL.

So I know it not always the right way to handle life but is it wrong to always be on the defensive side? There is alot of manipulative people in the world. Some people always have motives and cant be trusted. Im sorry for this stereotype but "all dudes are DOGS" and if not all 89% or somewhere beyond that We all and if not all ALOT of us have had our heart broken from the false hope of love someone gave us...Being defensive might not be the best way to approach a situation but it most def the most safe. I admit I dont always follow that rule cause I do put myself in situations where If things go wrong on the defensive side was obviously the last way I was thinking, but still i cant always account for making responsibe decisions..You will always be left wondering What if...If you do...I would like to say growing up with a step dad instead of a Real [real meaning biological daddy] has ALOT to do with it...&& yes i say daddy cause anyman can be a father (that only requires sperm), but it takes a hell of a man to be called a daddy ( that has meaning) its said from the mind of small or young child (nothings more pure than that)...Ofcourse girls have played a role in my defensiveness too people who "pretended to be my friend" only to back stab...I guess ALL THOSE THINGS have a key role in the life of a "defensiveGIRL"!

I prolly shouldnt have signed on this site from this computer....#fail all in the history ugh!

What's In a Female Friend

                          So Through my 22 years of life i have had two girls Ive called my best friend for the last 8 years of my life their names are Nicole and LaTeesha. Ive ofcourse trusted many girls in between who ended up showing me they didnt deserve the trust I gave them. They are not the point nor my actual best friends I have mentioned, My question in this blog is simply "Whats in a female friend?" Someone  you can trust and tell secrets to, or maybe someone you can truly express yourself to, someone who knows your deepest insecurites? Or someone who knows you better than you know yourself, maybe even someone who you want better things for than you want for yourself! This I really dont know I think with some girls life itself is a competetion and therefor they will never have a "true" best friend because jealously and envy will soon ruin any relationship its present in...I quess I have my own outlook on what a bestfriend should be, because even on Sex and The City Carrie has had trials and tribulations with the rest of the ladies...So ofcourse a drama free 100% happy best friendship is not in exsistance...but is atleast 99% to much to ask.....?  Until this is answered I'll be my own VERY BEST FRIEND 100%

A Hundred and Thirteen Pounds of HeLL in HeeLs!

Shes Back Bitches!

Young && Single?

So the main issue in my life right now is my relationship. I love my boyfriend to death, but i feel like I have been in meaningful relationship since i was like 17 years old and I am 21 now. I feel like there is a whole new me I need to get to know. The whole comming into adult hood thing. I havent focused on me 100% since i was a little girl (16/17-ish) && I feel like its time I found me! Dont get me wrong I love my man more than anything in the world he is the SWEETEST thing i have ever met spoils me, supports me, LOVES && MAKES LOVE to me. I couldnt ask to me meet a more lovely person i swear. Its just the want to be myself and do more things for and by myself. He doesnt feel that way but if you ask me WE both need to work on our selves seperately! Im just really torn in two different directions right now and its EXTRA HARD

.Tats

&& ive been tearing my self apart lately thinking about getting a tattoo...&& being as tho i like to be different its looking like not having a tat is the way to go...I mean ppl are all copying off each other and celebrities like i dont want something on me someone else has on them so im thinking im not getting anything not to mention im not braggin but my skin is really nice i have hardly any scars on my body and none on my face not to mention ive never had a pimple....so yea i think im staying Tat FREE babe!

.She Back

OMG Where do i start lolz i have no idea life has taking all kinds of twist and turns some good some bad...and it crazy every single bit of it....I def got my new phone which is an i phone, I guess i can check && see if theres a blogspot app...&& its def time for a layout change i mean my one love in life shopping has gone no where but idk its just crazy....i am overly obsessed with twitter i can admit so if u have one request to follow me...http://twitter.com/HerJUICYmajesty lol im constantly updating! && facebook i guess im paying a little bit more attention to...I really wanna go on a vacay this summer but idk where no where close like NY or some shit i wanna change of fucking weather scenery && ppl lolz im think south beach but im really not sure...i still really wanna M.A.C i told my boyfriend that a Macbook was the only thing i wanted for christmas lolz so we will see if that happens.  My phone has transformed me into a apple instead of a dell. lolz but yea im going to try to update regularly again! So Stay tuned!